This week has been a pretty tough week work wise. I have had some late nights, followed by some early mornings and a whole lot of not seeing Olivia. At all. I know she has suffered for it and it was all I could to not to start blubering all over the show last night when despite the fact that her eyelids looked like they had 10kg weights on them, she was forcing herself to stay awake because she knew that was all the time we had. That sleep would snatch our time selfishly away from us. Bringing the long night, followed by the morning and time for school. She fought it bravely filling me in on all the goss from school. Who was ‘in’ this week. Who was playing with who and more importantly did I leave her some Mr Kipling chocolate cake slices for lunch (yes I did thank you very much)
It’s hard for her to have to stay out so much and popular to contrary belief, I actually miss her when she’s not here.I miss our random chats, her company, my excuse to watch the Disney channel guilt free! I even miss the shouting and the repetion of the school morning because no………….you cannot watch another episode of The Wizards of Waverly Place! And for the love of god brush your teeth we have to LEAVE 5 MINUTES AGO!
Olivia is very much the home bird and isn’t a fan of being away from home too much so despite my better judgement I let her sleep in my bed last night! It also helped us squeeze a few more minutes out of the day. To catch up and just be together for a little while longer. She read to me. Since getting her bunk beds she has taken to reading before she goes to sleep and read me a few pages of High School Musical.
As part of my getting my life back on track scheme (which I totally need to update you on soon) I promised to spend more time with her and away from social media/laptop and any other distractions. And we have been. We talk and listen. She talks more. We watch the Disney channel (obvs) and providing I’m not too late home from work we throw some food together. But it really is hard balancing work and home life and still 14 months on after going full time I still don’t have it figured out.
I also still don’t like the mum it makes me. The shouty mum, the stressy mum, the one who doesn’t have time, sshhh and go away mum. I get tired and I get cranky and all she wants is me for the little time we have together. But I need to make an effort, maybe more so at times, hence the bed sharing and reading because ultimately isn’t that what it is all about. Time together, quality time, just the two of us.
I’m looking forward to Sunday. A day off over the weekend to be cherised, make plans for and let her take the reigns before it all starts again on Monday.
How do you balance work and home life? Do you have any tips for me? I would love to hear them.
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My word of the week is tough