I am 32 years of age, 33 this year, I should be grown up by now shouldn’t I?
I should have my life planned and be living it as a responsible grown adult.
This week I found myself doing something completely irrational and yes, downright irresponsible.
I handed my notice in at work!
What the heck! I hear you saying? Do you have another job? How will you support Olivia? What on earth were you thinking?
All very important and valid questions so I will explain now.
I love my job, it was my first job when I left school at 16, I have gone back to it many times and this time I swore it would be my last job as I am a bit of a job whore, swapping and changing jobs all the time. I felt settled, happy, I made it to the management team, I started the company pension so sure I was of this being my final place of employment..
But life doesn’t always work out the way we wanted it to, doesn’t care what or how we planned things and has a habit of running roughshot over everything and anything in its way.
This job was keeping me out late at night and in early of a morning meaning that Olivia was spending her week staying out to accommodate my awful working hours
For example to help you understand:
- Monday 4-10pm (Olivia at dads)
- Tuesday 7-1am (Olivia at home)
- Wednesday 4-10pm (Olivia at dads)
- Thursday 7-12am (Olivia home)
And so on. You get the idea. This weekend looks like this
- Friday 12-8pm
- Saturday 4-8pm
- Sunday 7am-5pm
The point being I am hardly at home when she needs to be and I am missing out on so much with her I just personally feel that she deserves my time more than anyone and if I don’t put her first who will. Our children deserve us to be the best parents we can be and sometimes that means knowing when to draw the line, to put them first.
To do things we don’t want to do in order to achieve this.
For Olivia and I this means a new job, maybe a new career, one that’s fits better with our life, one that has more child friendly hours to find a better balance.
But for now the job hunt is on and I continue to feel completely irresponsible.